In the last few years I’ve noticed 2 things that have changed the direction my life has taken.  Firstly, I’ve become somewhat unsatisfied by the models and modes of ministries that I both work with and under.  They are by and large, racialized segregated models of a Church that should not be so.  I am passionate about the unity and health of the Church, and would love to see Love win out over a myriad of evils.  However, there is a lot to learn before I can more adequately help the Church move forward to a loving, relevant part of normal society.  At this point I’m not sure what I’m even able to accomplish.  Secondly, my own personality and gifts aren’t used very well in my current job.  I am by nature a person who loves ideas and people.  I enjoy pressure and high energy environments.  In what I do currently, I am often tied down by administrative details and work with spreadsheets more than people.  I would like that to change, and so along with what I’d like to accomplish in my short life, seminary seemed like the right “next step.”

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Politics and Relevancy

Should Christians play a part in politics? If so how?

Indeed, the way Christians respond to this question may reflect whether or not they are relevant in today’s society and in what way.

Firstly, I do believe that Christians have a vital role in contributing to the American process of Democracy. I remember pledging many times “…to the republic…” What does this pledge mean except that I take part in what our constitution declares?

“We the people of the United States of America, in order to form a more perfect union, establish Justice, insure domestic Tranquility, provide for the common defense, promote the general Welfare, and secure the Blessings of Liberty to ourselves and our Posterity…

As an American, I have the privilege to shape the direction of this country. I would hope that our country honors God, and while I do not think a theocracy would honor Him per se, (Look at some Kings that didn’t last) I believe a merciful, just, and gracious country that promotes Godly values would. (Mitt Romney said it pretty well in his Religion speech that was recently delivered.)

Secondly, I believe that by serving your country, you are able to serve God and live the kind of life God desires. (This doesn’t mean you can’t serve God in other ways, but the political way is a possibility) To be brief, God gives us the command to love him and our neighbor. Insuring that our country values God and/or Godly values and that our country allows us to worship freely, results in the presence of God among the people. This allows us to not only be engaged and love our neighbor better, but it helps demonstrate to non-believers that we as Christians care about what happens to them and where our country is going. In that way, we can build bridges on issues people care about in order to fulfill the Great Commission.

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Two Officers Hurt

Today, I was coming home from an interfaith meeting on how to address the systemic problems of crime and the like in our city.  As I approached our home, I saw a span of 8 blocks that were behind a police line, mine being one of them.  Luckily, Rachel was ok, but it struck me as ironic that as I was sitting in a meeting about crime, it was taking place at home.

The police would not let me drive in, so after a while of searching I finally made it home.  Would you pray for the two officers and their families?  Pray for our neighborhood?  Pray for Milwaukee?  Thank you.

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Some thoughts on The Golden Compass

I’ve been looking forward to the debut of a movie called The Golden Compass since I saw the previews in August, so last weekend I read the book on which the movie is based. I enjoyed it. Quite a bit. It’s a well-written, highly creative, and engaging story. I could barely put it down. There were some themes that made me mildly uncomfortable, but on the whole, my anticipation of the movie to be released on December 7th only increased. Then this week I received an email warning me against watching the movie, calling it the anti-Narnia€ and the work of the evil one.€ This sent me on a search for the truth about the books and their author Philip Pullman. Quite a scandal has arisen over them, complete with mud-slinging and overblown accusations from both sides (though not from Pullman directly, I don’t think). I have struggled to form my own hopefully more balanced opinion. Below are some of my thoughts. (A word of warning: I do give away the ending of the book series, so if you’re planning to read the books for fun, you might want to stop here!)

Case in Point

I think it has been a mistake to blow this up into a huge drama. One of Pullman’s loudest, clearest mantras is against the scenario repeated throughout history (to our shame) in which a religious power tries to control something that it fears and ends up depriving people of good things or even hurting people. Yesterday on The Today Show€ he said,

I always mistrust people who tell us how we should understand something. They know better than we do what the book means or what this means and how we should read it and whether we should read it or not.€ http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21595083   

If we take our stance in fear and ignorance, we are just giving him a case in point. He is (rightfully) laughing at us as he says with a smug smile, I’m delighted to have brought such excitement into what must be very dull lives.€


Let’s calm down and think about this logically. What do we have to be afraid of?

Fantasy is for Fun

When the scandal about Harry Potter first hit the fan several years ago, I really didn’t know what all the fuss was about. People seemed to think kids would confuse Rowling’s fiction with reality, and I didn’t think that was likely. The whole point of fantasy literature is to escape to the worlds of the unreal; that’s why fantasy is fun. (If you’re going to boycott books and movies that skew kids’€”and adults’€”view of reality, why not target romantic comedies??) That was my initial take on The Golden Compass, too. I wrote in an email to a friend:

As with The Dark is Rising or The Chronicles of Narnia or any number of other books I read as a kid, someone could probably read or watch The Golden Compass without picking up on any political or religious statements and just enjoy the very creative and engaging story.€

When asked if he consciously aimed to deal with life’s big questions when he sat down to write the books, Pullman answered, “No. The only duty it [writing] has is best expressed in the words of Dr Johnson: “The only aim of writing is to help the reader better to enjoy life, or better to endure it.”


And again yesterday on “The Today Show” he said, Well, what I intend that they [viewers/readers] take from it is a good experience of a good story.€ http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21595083

I don’t think Pullman had an agenda when he was writing the books, so I don’t think we should read an agenda into them, as if he were deliberately trying to corrupt or kidnap our children. You’d think he was a pedophile instead of an author, judging from some of our recent responses.

Fundamentally Serious

However, as I did more research, my view on Pullman and his books began to change somewhat. Eventually I had to concede that they are a little more than just fun stories.

In an interview on MTV, Philip Pullman compares C.S. Lewis’ Chronicles of Narnia with Tolkein’s trilogy by saying,

“The ‘Narnia’ books are fundamentally more serious than ‘Lord of the Rings,’ … [because they] are full of serious questions about religion: ‘Which God should we worship? Is there a God at all? What happens when we die?€ http://www.mtv.com/movies/news/articles/1573211/20071031/story.jhtml

I think that whatever Pullman intended to write when he sat down to pen the opening scene with Lyra hiding in the wardrobe (sound familiar?), he has written a fundamentally serious€ trilogy in His Dark Materials. For me that puts his books in a different category than the average fantasy book.

What an author believes will come through his stories whether he plans for it to or not, and if we’re going to believe that The Chronicles of Narnia are powerful because of the truths they contain, then we must also believe that the untruths in His Dark Materials could be powerful and influential. Therefore, without overreacting in fear and paranoia, I think it is important to examine what Pullman believes and the themes that are likely to come through in the film. Here are a few important points:

#1 Pullman is an agnostic. He says on his website: 

I don’t know whether there’s a God or not. Nobody does, no matter what they say. I think it’s perfectly possible to explain how the universe came about without bringing God into it, but I don’t know everything, and there may well be a God somewhere, hiding away.€ 


#2 Pullman’s stance is not exactly anti-religious, but he is opposed to religions which abuse their power. I think we can all agree with him on that part, though we might arrive at different solutions to the problem. In an interview with some elementary school students, he described his views this way:

In the world of the story €” Lyra’s world €” there is a church that has acquired great political power, rather in the way that some religions in our world have done at various times, and still do (think of the Taliban in Afghanistan). My point is that religion is at its best €” it does most good €” when it is farthest away from political power, and that when it gets hold of the power to (for example) send armies to war or to condemn people to death, or to rule every aspect of our lives, it rapidly goes bad. Sometimes people think that if something is done in the name of faith or religion, it must be good. Unfortunately, that isn’t true; some things done in the name of religion are very bad. That was what I was trying to describe in my story.€ http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21595083 

#3 In the end of Pullman’s trilogy, God dies, and it isn’t a very flattering description. From The Amber Spyglass, the last book in his series:

Demented and powerless the aged being could only weep and mumble in fear and pain and misery, and he shrank away from what seemed like yet another threat. “It’s all right,” Will said, “we can help you hide, at least. Come on, we won’t hurt you.” The shaking hand seized his and feebly held on. The old one was uttering a wordless whimper that went on and on, and grinding his teeth, and compulsively plucking at himself with his free hand; but as Lyra reached in, too, to help him out, he tried to smile, and to bow, and his ancient eyes deep in their wrinkles blinked at her with innocent wonder.

Between them they helped the ancient of days out of his crystal cell; it wasn’t hard, for he was as light as paper, and he would have followed them anywhere, having no will of his own, and responding to simple kindness like a flower to the sun. But in the open air there was nothing to stop the wind from damaging him, and to their dismay his form began to loosen and dissolve. In only a few moments he had vanished completely, and their last impression was of those eyes, blinking in wonder, and a sigh of the most profound and exhausted relief. Then he was gone: a mystery dissolving in mystery.€


#4 Pullman sees with natural eyes. Therefore his answers to life’s serious questions are basically the opposite of Christianity’s answers. It’s striking how much like a mirror image Pullman’s ending is from C.S. Lewis’ ending in The Chronicles, which makes sense, considering Pullman’s view of Lewis’ ending. Pullman says,

“I didn’t read the ‘Narnia’ books until I was grown up, and I could sort of see what he was getting at, and he was getting at the reader in a way I didn’t like…The questions are all there, but I don’t like Lewis’ answers. I don’t like the fact that he sends the children through these extraordinary adventures, allows them to see and do these wonderful things, and then at the end of the book kills them in a railway accident. They’re all dead, and this is meant to be a great release, a wonderful thing. It seems to me the proper thing to do, the moral thing to do, the Christian thing to do would be to let those children continue to live and do good in the world, having learned something. But no, that wasn’t what Lewis wanted.” http://today.msnbc.msn.com/id/21595083

In direct contrast, here is Pullman’s ending from The Amber Spyglass. Lyra, the protagonist, is speaking in the closing scene some time after the death of God.

“[Will's father] meant the Kingdom was over, the Kingdom of Heaven, it was all finished. We shouldn’t live as if it mattered more than this life in this world, because where we are is always the most important place€¦”

“We have to be all those different things like cheerful and kind and curious and patient, and we’ve got to study and think and work hard, all of us, in all our different worlds, and then we’ll build . . .”

“And then what?” said her daemon sleepily. “Build what?”

“The Republic of Heaven,” said Lyra.


If you look at Lewis’ ending with natural eyes, it is a horrible tragedy; if you look at it with spiritual eyes it’s one of the happiest endings ever written. (I cry with joy almost every time I read it.) On the other hand, if you look at Pullman’s ending with natural eyes, it sounds great: there is no longer anyone in control; the ultimate good, freedom, has been achieved. The idea of a world without someone telling you what to do is about the best heaven€ natural eyes can imagine, but spiritual eyes show the emptiness of that freedom.€

Pullman’s views are the water we’re swimming in these days. He’s not the first or the last to hold up a world without boundaries as the best goal. (I can just hear the hyenas on The Lion King chanting, No king! No king! La la la la la la!€) Perhaps that’s why we’re afraid of the power of his philosophy. We know it’s attractive. Part of us wants to believe it, and most of the world around us does. As sinners we all think we would be better off on our own, doing as we please. We’re blind to the fact that we’re enslaved to our own desires, and we cringe (or run from) the thought of making ourselves the slaves of God, not realizing that God’s law is the law of liberty€ (James 1:25), and when we seek His precepts we walk in a wide place€ (Ps 119:45). All of us at different points think we want to be free in regard to righteousness.€ But what fruit are we getting from the things we do on our own? The end of those things is death€ (Romans 6:20-23).

How do we Respond?

So, how do we respond to Pullman, his books, and the upcoming movie release? With love and careful discernment. Talk to God about whether or not you personally should watch this movie and/or read these books. If you choose to do so, think carefully about the themes presented and measure them carefully against the truth. Only take your kids if they’re old enough to sit down with you afterward and sort out truth from fiction. (Though I highly recommend that you do that at the end of romantic comedies€”and other movies€”as well!)

Have compassion on Pullman. Unless something changes, he and many of our friends and family around us are going to refuse to trade in their freedom.€ They will cling to the best this world has to offer and miss the exhilarating joy at the return of the King!

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A Message

Today, I was working with my Thunderbird client minimized, and the title that it gave me caused me to pause: “Trash for Juan”

Is this just simply trash for my brain?  Or more directly, is this trash for my soul?  Perhaps more simply, it’s just a monumental coincidence.  But no matter how it came about to be, I can’t help but wonder about the massive amounts of unwanted emails I get everyday:

Today, Alderman Donovan decried the Milwaukee Public School System (MPS) as they’ve asked for a 16% increase in property taxes!  This, after many similar hikes that have left many people struggling.  Donovan said that the governor and mayor should take control and fix the problems in MPS.

Xerox, Costco, Dell, and some random Chinese manufacturing plant are all having sales today!  But they end in a day or two, only so that they can have a slightly better sale the day after. :-P

The restructuring of management in my job is still taking place, and they are still telling me about the details that will not impact my life for at least another 10 years.  Since I will be going to Gordon Conwell, I doubt I’ll ever see what happens.

Finally, there are a plethora of receipts, itineraries, and just plain junk, that I’ve sorted through today, and will continue to sort through fairly frequently until I die.  Joy of joys

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Post Barcamp Thoughts

Milwaukee Barcamp 2 this weekend past was a hoot!  Lots of nerds, (or trendy people, depending on how you look at it) came together this weekend to discuss all things remotely related to the world wide web.  Some people even came and talked about things not related to the world wide web.  So all in all, everyone talked about everything, and the sum of human knowledge was found and lost as quickly as an LED throwie.

However, the remnants of connectivity and collaboration are sure to remain long after this barcamp is forgotten.  But until then, barcamp will forever live on in google’s database.

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Another inspired digital drawing!  I hope you like it!  I made it using Paint.net

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Barcamp Milwaukee

This week I will be attending barcamp Milwaukee 2!  Barcamp is an unconference that is held to to talk about largely tech related topics.  As the name implies, many of the participants will actually be camping out in the conference area, complete with lan parties and talks of zen.  The word bar is an interesting geek symbol that represents the technology being discussed.

In an unconference the participants are also the presenters, therefore, I have submitted two ideas for sessions:

If there is enough interest, I will be leading a session on these topics.  While I may not be the expert, I know more than average, and, when you are at a conference where the topics range from voice over IP to terrain-mapping, above average is enough to give people of different disciplines enough information to develop something new!

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Pandora’s Box

I have to give props to Pandora.com.  They have managed to come up with an online music service that I really like!  Normally online stations have one of two things: terrible bandwidth or terrible selection or both.

However, Pandora has a smooth sound, that I haven’t heard skip yet!  Also, they allow you to create your own stations based on music that you already like.  What that means is that I get to listen to artists that sound similar to the ones I like.  Why don’t you head over and listen to Smooth and Alive, my personal radio station that was made with the seeds of Simon and Garfunkel, Shane and Shane Stacie Orrico, and T-Bone.

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A Blur

Just a quick digital drawing that I thought indicated good movement.  I think I might submit it to Illustration Friday for fun!  Their current theme word is momentum.  Do you think it shows momentum?


It was a great deal of fun trying to get the right blur effects to get color and flow.  Do you think it worked?

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